Sunday, August 28, 2005
Out!
i seriously want to just go out into the world.
Out!
i don't mean come out..like admit that i'm gay or lesbian or whatever..
btw, my kissing scene pix with janica were purely done for art..hehe.. besides, i'm too kikay to fall in love with a girl..
totally out of topic...
what i do mean is.. i admire and hate at the same time those people who know how to show and make good use of their talents without being over-the-top show-offy. you see..i've always wanted to write poetry and sing and stuff like that but i'm afraid that it's not for me...
funny, that for someone like me who can get so garapal at times, i still have stage fright and most of the time i'm still afraid to try out things that i really, really wanted to do..
how long will i have to grit my teeth and watch others who can shine without being painful to look at.. i know, i claim their moments to be mine sometimes..
i want to perform!!!!
shit!
that's why i really want to have a speech choir these year... it's my therapy.. i live for the moments on stage..when you feel you're one with the universe and you become brave enough to spill your guts on stage and do whatever you can!
whew.
it's more than just revenge, i do love being onstage.
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 9:18 PM
