Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Syempre

In Coper-slang, there is a very wide gap between the words "syempre" and "of course".
When life gets too difficult, too complicated and too fucked up, aren't you just glad that "syempre" exists?

Why are we so poor?
Syempre…

Will I pass the test?
Syempre…

Will I fail the test?
Syempre…

Is he even listening?
Syempre…

When we are just tired, drained to the bone and devoid of all emotions, aren’t we just glad that “syempre” exists? Syempre… And then, there would be no need for explanation – no need to sugarcoat, but never fully stripped of hope.

Why am I saying all this? Syempre…
Last Thursday, hours before that bittersweet mishap otherwise called our Hindu Opera, I scribbled something at the back of my math notebook.

“I have never felt so dead ever. It’s as if I have been robbed of all the reasons, all the zeal to wake up early each day. I am barely hanging onto a dream, barely looking for an excuse.”

I have not lost my faith entirely, so I say to you, for whatever doubts you have in mind, there will always be a spark of hope.

Syempre…

C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 10:35 PM

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