Friday, December 29, 2006
panic! at the freezing kitchen
shet na super effing malagkit.I'm super running out of time, and I still have to fix my shitty sigsheet for my org thingy. I still have to make a three-dimensional object that will represent me and therefore function as my "autobiography" and I have to make another three-D thing for my sponsor.
I so don't have the time and heart to do any of those. Dammit. It's panic time again! I have been reminding myself constantly that I must never quit, but I'm getting even more depressed by the minute. If I do quit, I'll be forever sad about my wasted time, effort and money! (Plus Mutti will kill me for all the long distance phone calls I make everytime I feel down.)
Hellllllpppp maaaaaaaayyyy!!! What am I supposed to do for my autobiography? I wouldn't be stressing so much if I only had those three things to do, but there's the dreader "fun week" come january and I'm scared as frozen shit.
Whyyyyy???!!! I'm missing out on all the fab crew fun because of this. But come to think of it, Erielle and Ayah went through the same shit stuff last sem and they made it!
Well, I'm a different story. I'm chicken shit. I'm surprised that I made it "this far". I was expecting that I'd be quitting on the second tambay day. But, why do they have to push us around and make us do stupid things and scream at our faces? I can't see the effing point anymore.
The point, as I have been told many times- is to develop our character and to test just how well we can work under pressure.
Riiiight.
Right now, I am panicky as hell and I'm currently downloading Hindu prayers for inner peace. I so need hugs, and a hot boy.
I am so dreading january, because it means org troubles and coming home to a sucky apartment with only instant noodles and skyflakes for dinner. Aaaaarrghhh! I so miss Anne. Sure, the apartment was cramped when there was still three of us, but everything was much funner! And Anne can always talk me into sanity.
Dammit. I miss yew.
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:24 PM
Thursday, December 28, 2006
written catharsis
I am supposed to attend a friend's debut tomorrow, but I won't be able to come because of a family affair, and yes because I am somewhat grounded due to a very classic manifestation of juvenile delinquency (read: setting off the goddamn smoke alarm thingy in the bathroom while I was smoking.) So that means, bye-bye party! (Jan, dearie- I so want to go, but the 'rents say I can't. Very,very sorry. I know you want to burn my hair already!)So that's it. And then I realized I am but a clueless teenager! Sweet Jesus, I am sooo fucking sixteen years old!!!!! I can't believe how young I am. I mean, hello- when I talk to myself I sound like I'm 30. Bang na bang! It's scares me. I can't believe how freakin' young I am!
Really. I should be wearing a high school uniform and oggling at teen magazines and being really sad about having breakouts. Like,totally! This is so fucking scary.
And because of this timely panic, I shall vow to not smoke again. Or at least for the whole year. Hahahaha. Mainly because I have such wholesome friends who effing hate smokers, and I just have this idea that they won't let me sit at the fabulous lunch table if I don't quit. It's really funny that I have super wholesome friends who always shudder everytime I ask them about bang na bang na premarital sex. On the other hand, they are my saving grace- not that I'm so ruined by myself naman. It's just good that they're sane enough to tell me to shut up everytime I tell them, "Let's do drugs!". Hahahahaha. Just the same, they won't pass the chance for some quality "worship sessions" (a.k.a. inuman).
Because I'm so weird right now, let me just make buking my room mates. You thought they were docile ha! Noooooo... One day Anne's parents came and said, "What's this?" (points to a vodka bottle).
And of course my sweet sister said, "Kay jobel po yan..."
Don't you just love it? Hahahaha...
In other news, I so miss Cello (yep, it's spelled that way...). We heard he got a haircut (bye bye bitching ponytail!) and is currently so fucking unemployed.
What can be hotter than a sexy unemployed guy?
well,what can i say? salvation is here.
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:47 PM
2007: fast approaching!
Gawd. I can't believe 2006 is almost over. It's pretty sad,because I feel that there are sooo many things I failed to do. On the other hand, I feel hopeful 'cos a new year means a fresh start.Before I dream of whipping out a New Year's Resolution (uh-uh...), I first want to have a list of fresh, exciting and definitely bang na bang! things to do, try or buy...
Help me out, darlings!
What are the the ultimate must-haves/must-dos for year 2007?
We all need a bit of craziness in our lives to keep us always zealous and young! So tell me what's on your mind...
I'll compile everyone's suggestions and hopefully, we'll get to accomplish the list together!
Hahahaha...I'm sensing that my crazy friends will think of very,very illegal stuff.
Aha! I know! I know! Number one on the list should be: eat okra! Yeaaaah, I haven't actually eaten okra. I had a "successful" attempt when we ate sinigang at my good friend Alain's house, but I eventually spat it out when I went to the bathroom.
That's it! That's must-do number one for 2007!
EAT (meaning put in mouth, chew and swallow) just one piece of okra.
Seems pretty achievable,huh? (riiiigggghhhhtttt...)
Yeah, that's how daring and gutsy I am!
I shall prove to you, darlings and to the rest of the world that I have the balls to consume an entire piece of okra!!!!!
Rawwwwrrrr!
Come one, come all! (Don't Shy!) Hahahaha... Tell me your must-do's and must-try's!
It's gonna be funnnnnn...and oh yeah, definitely bang na bang!
have a sexy new year!
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 3:12 PM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
nervous wreck
i am such a nervous wreck. worrying aboout my org ordeal has taken up most of my winter break. dammit. i was supposed to write something (na bang na bang!) in retaliation to Edgar's anti-vegetarianism post (see Pio's blog), but i am just so friggin lugaw right now.why????!!!!
aaaaaaaccckkk.. it's so toxic.
later on, i shall look back on this post and realize just how much i over-react to things... which i do most of the time.
anyhoooowww... thanks to the wonderful gifts i've gotten from family and fans this Christmas. The best one i've gotten so far (keep em coming! hahahaha) is Maksim's Electronik CD.
Bang na bang! I love the remixes, especially Requiem. I intend on having it as the official backgound music on my funeral (where I shall require all my friends to think of a choreography that can beat the dance sequence from My Chemical Romance's "Helena").
I'll try to upload some tracks soon.
In other news, for those who no longer have any idea of what i look like, here's the perfect opportunity for me to justify my vanity...
I know, i know.. the resolution is pretty crappy, but you gotta give it up for my
bang na bang! smoky eyes. Hahaha.
you are so beautiful, you...
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 8:11 PM
Back to Basics
This, I have to say, is the simplest yet most emotional Christmas ever. It's Christmas minus the expensive gifts, minus the boozin' and crazy parties, minus the all too lavish feast – partly due to financial and time constraints and partly because of the family's desire to celebrate Christ's birth and just being a family. I appreciate the fact that since this Christmas is void of unnecessary materialism; I got to know myself and my family better. Being away from my parents for most of the time, I really just wanted to spend the (winter) holidays with them. (Yes, you got that right. This is the perfect explanation for my absence in the party scene…)On the other hand, I can't help but notice the lack of sparkle in pretty much everything. I know that almost everyone is experiencing financial strain, but it mustn't stop us from dreaming big and celebrating. What we terribly lack in cash, we can always compensate with our time and thoughtfulness- something I should have told my parents.
You see, my parents (the notorious Mutti and Vatti) are the most hardworking people I know. They always tell me that I should be grateful that I have honest entrepreneurs for parents. I am proud of my parents, but if there ever was a Workaholics' Rehab, I would have checked them in long ago.
My parents are the Baddest Business people ever. They start their transactions from 6 AM and they end at 11 PM. (Don't worry, we don't sell illegal stuff.) And that drives me craaaaaaazzzzzaaaayyyy!!! They work on weekends. They work on holidays (including Lent and Christmas). Everything got worse when they decided to do their business in our house (to be able to supervise their daughter's affairs). They receive phone calls and orders even at around 2 AM, and now we have tons of merch packages all over the house.
It just bums me out that they didn't bother to do anything special this Christmas. We didn't have a real Noche Buena, because we can't afford to eat altogether (since they're always receiving customer orders and talking to dealers). That's not so bad, really. But there's just 3 of us, and yet we can't eat at the same time sitting around a dinner table like other families.
They are the best parents I could ever ask for, but I know things could be better. Sometimes, I can't help but wish they were normal parents who work in offices or schools- at least they won't have to work on holidays and they don't have to do their work at home.
I know they're not just all about the profits. They just happen to be really industrious people who think that sitting around is a waste of time. I appreciate the amount of dedication that they put into our business, but most of the time we don't do things that families are supposed to do together.
Well, right now I am in the living room crammed with packages and gifts for inaanaks. My parents are in their “headquarters” doing inventories while our next door neighbors are doing vocal pyrotechniques (a.k.a. videokefest). Gee, thanks mom and dad for the gifts, but something as simple as a shared dinner would have been just as great.
Here's to a really meaningful Christmas, darlings!
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:14 PM
Monday, December 18, 2006
ma famille
disclaimer: this is a few days late...I have just seen the movie Inang Yaya, and I'm telling you- it's one of the saddest movies I've ever seen. First, it's my first time to watch a movie alone and second, it's a really touching movie. It hit me harder because I've been missing my own mom lately- I know that I see her every week, but I really miss just seeing her everyday. I miss being in grade school and being fetched every afternoon. I miss going to church with her. I miss having her fix my hair.
I am not exactly missing my old, sheltered lifestyle. I just miss being a kid. I wanted to grow up early…and I guess I did.
When I entered college, I was a bit scared that the whole moving away thing was gonna ruin my relationship with my family. I sort of brushed that thought off, and I assumed that all kids are bound to hate their parents anyways.
I'm so glad that I was wrong about that. Twenty or so kilometers away, my parents are still my biggest supporters. I'm so thankful that I got this chance to have a taste of independence, while getting to appreciate my parents more along the way.
Lately, I've been crying a lot. And it's not really due to the emotional stresses of applying for SAMASKOM. I just miss my parents a lot. I miss being their only girl, and from time to time, I do miss being their spoiled brat.
Mutti found out what really happens during the org application, and she doesn't agree with the system. She told me that when she was just pregnant with me, she was sure she can kill anyone who would dare call me ugly. Well, I have been hearing that everyday now and somehow I feel numb already. It just bothers me that my overprotective parents might file a lawsuit against the org. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I know...I know... We all grow up, and we are all supposed to learn how to be independent. Sooner or later, we'll take on bigger roles, but I'll always be happy to be just Mutti and Vatti's girl.
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:19 PM
shit happens
shit happens big time even to good kids like me.first of all that goddamn ToFI was approved. i don't regret going to quezon hall last friday and dragging carlo into his first tibak event.
i really am supposed to put in more substantial text following that statement, but some random bastard ruined my day and my email account.
yes, my email account got hacked!!! my good friend (the birthday girl) ees sent me a message asking me is I was still online.
wtf?!! i was never online today. soooo, to make this really crappy story short, i realized someone hacked my account and had enough guts to ask my friends to meet "me" somewhere tomorrow.
of course that didn't work, because my friends are smart enough not to fall for his spiel.
the question is--Why me?
dammit! i bet everyone knows how inconvenient it is to have your email account hacked and having to get a new one and telling all your contacts that you have a new account and all that shitter-majiggers.
on the bright side, i would like to think i'm famous enough to have some creep hacking my emails...
ooooohh... a stalker! hahahahahaha...
that's it. shit really happens. will be back with more sense later.
gimme some love!
xxmimose ze queen
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 6:03 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
can i say haggard?
zo my gawd.for the past week, i have been extremely busy, extremely emotional, harrassed and confused...but heck, this is the way to a showbiz career. So, I must say... attack!
We got past through the much dreaded SAMASKOM acquaintance party, it was easier than we expected. It was even funny. I was thinking that I might break down once they start bombarding me with questions and curses, but it was so freakishly funny that i had such a hard time stiffling giggles.
As many of my dearest Tosh friends knew, I was dressed as a SEA URCHIN. (Dash was KRABBY the CRAB) To make things more exciting, we had to make a production number- we danced to the tune of under the sea.. (as expected) And did our own version of the Cell Block Tango from Chicago....as sea creatures.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
All the while, they were asking us to stay in character. Being the obedient applicant that i am, i froze in the background...
Ano ka? Bakit walang ginagawa dyan? Patay ka na ba?!
Sea urchins don't move, ma'am.
Ah ganon... Tinatalinuhan mo ko ah! Eh kung bunutin ko kaya yang mga patusok mo. (Edi binunot naman nya...)
Bakit wala kang reaction??!! Dapat nasasaktan ka! (insert curse word)
Wala pong pakiramdam ang mga sea urchin.
At baket??!!! Pag hindi mo na-explain, patay ka sakin!
Dahil wala po silang nerve endings.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!! Then, she gave up on me. It pays to be a one-time ultra bio geek!!!
Akala niyo ha!
much love from the fabbest sea urchin from under the sexy caspian sea,
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 9:24 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
skechers street dance!
thanks to my PE (cheerleading), i got to full heterosexual mode again after being with so many cute guys (Drew, I know you're reading this. And yes, cute ka na rin dahil sa treat! Hahahaha! But you're still the worst psycho driver eveeeerrrr!!!!)Back to regular programming...
We watched the skechers streetdance battle last night at the araneta, and it was craaaaazzzzyyyy!!!! (Partly because I was sitting with a bunch of guys from another school. Read: My fab friends from another QC University. Hahahaha!)
It was a great show, in fairness. There were 13 High School participants and 13 college participants. In all fabulosity, my 2 bets both won- Xavier HS and the defending champs (yabang ba?)UP Diliman! Whoot!
How the Hello Kitty do they do that? Para silang tumira ng Motolite! Gawd! All of a sudden I feel so talent-less! Hahahaha... For you, sad little darlings who didn't get to watch the whole thing live, you can catch it on December 22, 9PM (I think...I'll post corrections later) on ETC!
The Xavier boys were really cute, especially when they did "My Humps".
OH MY GAAAAAWWWWWDDD!!!!!!! (The previous statement sounds so awful!!! hahahahaha!) That was the black eyed peas' "My Humps"! Shame on you dirty mind! Watch it on ETC and you'll know what I mean.
But of course, I am eternally proud of the UPD streetdance club! How do you make kids like that??!! I cheered my lungs out for them, and even got my friends to cheer for UPD! (hooray for us, team lupa!)
The rest of the night I can't remember...(kutob mo may party noh? Hahahaha!)
I'm sorry if this post sounds so stoned, I came home at 3AM kasi! And now, back to my Art Studies report on Hello Kitty...
Give me some love!!!!
Mimose ze Queen!
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 8:39 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006
feeling not so fab...
gaaaaaahhhh!!!!!!!! i missed you darlings! before i go on to ask for your words of encouragement, let me just confirm a few things:yes, yssa. i did see yael last wednesday ( i had no idea na birthday nya, otherwise i would have made pansin). he was looking kinda messy. i think he was going for the messy sexy kinda look, he didn't get me though (hahahaha!) cos i was feeling harrassed from PE class.
aaaand, i think we're done with the whole anti-homosexuals thing. as i said before, i will try not to be sel-imposing here (even though this is my blog ;p), i will just try to remind everyone to maintain a considerable amount of respect for everyone.
That would be all, thank you.
Okaaaaayyyy, so now's the time to explain what to took me so long to get my fabulous ass back online. Well, we are going level-up, darlings!
Yeaaaaahhh! You got that right! We finally got enough guts to apply for orgs! Most of us in the lunch crew will be joining the UP Advertising Core. Janica, Dash and I are currently applying for UP SAMASKOM (Samahan ng mga Mag-aaral sa Komunikasyon) For those of you who don't know about it (well, shame on you! hahahahaha!), this is the org where Giselle Sanchez, Laurenti Dyogi, Tuesday Vargas and Ate Glow all came from. If I make it through the grueling application process, you will get the chance to brag to your family and friends that you know me! Hahahahaha!
Yes, I am actually doing this for you. So you better pray for me and give me all the love I need! As of my last count, I already have 9 signatures from the resident members (I actually need 35!) an 10 tambay hours (I need 20 more!)
If all goes well...more fabulosity will come!
You just have no idea how busy I am this month! I am planning 2 parties, booked for 4 other parties, joining 2 orgs and still haven't done any Xmas shopping!
HECTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Give me some love!!!
Mimose ze Queen
