Monday, December 18, 2006
ma famille
disclaimer: this is a few days late...
I have just seen the movie Inang Yaya, and I'm telling you- it's one of the saddest movies I've ever seen. First, it's my first time to watch a movie alone and second, it's a really touching movie. It hit me harder because I've been missing my own mom lately- I know that I see her every week, but I really miss just seeing her everyday. I miss being in grade school and being fetched every afternoon. I miss going to church with her. I miss having her fix my hair.
I am not exactly missing my old, sheltered lifestyle. I just miss being a kid. I wanted to grow up early…and I guess I did.
When I entered college, I was a bit scared that the whole moving away thing was gonna ruin my relationship with my family. I sort of brushed that thought off, and I assumed that all kids are bound to hate their parents anyways.
I'm so glad that I was wrong about that. Twenty or so kilometers away, my parents are still my biggest supporters. I'm so thankful that I got this chance to have a taste of independence, while getting to appreciate my parents more along the way.
Lately, I've been crying a lot. And it's not really due to the emotional stresses of applying for SAMASKOM. I just miss my parents a lot. I miss being their only girl, and from time to time, I do miss being their spoiled brat.
Mutti found out what really happens during the org application, and she doesn't agree with the system. She told me that when she was just pregnant with me, she was sure she can kill anyone who would dare call me ugly. Well, I have been hearing that everyday now and somehow I feel numb already. It just bothers me that my overprotective parents might file a lawsuit against the org. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I know...I know... We all grow up, and we are all supposed to learn how to be independent. Sooner or later, we'll take on bigger roles, but I'll always be happy to be just Mutti and Vatti's girl.
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:19 PM
