Friday, December 29, 2006
panic! at the freezing kitchen
shet na super effing malagkit.I'm super running out of time, and I still have to fix my shitty sigsheet for my org thingy. I still have to make a three-dimensional object that will represent me and therefore function as my "autobiography" and I have to make another three-D thing for my sponsor.
I so don't have the time and heart to do any of those. Dammit. It's panic time again! I have been reminding myself constantly that I must never quit, but I'm getting even more depressed by the minute. If I do quit, I'll be forever sad about my wasted time, effort and money! (Plus Mutti will kill me for all the long distance phone calls I make everytime I feel down.)
Hellllllpppp maaaaaaaayyyy!!! What am I supposed to do for my autobiography? I wouldn't be stressing so much if I only had those three things to do, but there's the dreader "fun week" come january and I'm scared as frozen shit.
Whyyyyy???!!! I'm missing out on all the fab crew fun because of this. But come to think of it, Erielle and Ayah went through the same shit stuff last sem and they made it!
Well, I'm a different story. I'm chicken shit. I'm surprised that I made it "this far". I was expecting that I'd be quitting on the second tambay day. But, why do they have to push us around and make us do stupid things and scream at our faces? I can't see the effing point anymore.
The point, as I have been told many times- is to develop our character and to test just how well we can work under pressure.
Riiiight.
Right now, I am panicky as hell and I'm currently downloading Hindu prayers for inner peace. I so need hugs, and a hot boy.
I am so dreading january, because it means org troubles and coming home to a sucky apartment with only instant noodles and skyflakes for dinner. Aaaaarrghhh! I so miss Anne. Sure, the apartment was cramped when there was still three of us, but everything was much funner! And Anne can always talk me into sanity.
Dammit. I miss yew.
xxmimose
C h i n i k a n i M i m o s e n u n g b a n d a n g 7:24 PM
